Throughout 2018 and into the winter of 2019, I composted my life.
What do I mean by that?
I let it all go.
I let go of the bulk of the business that supported me for 12 years.
I let go of my marriage.
I let go of my dreams of becoming a mother.
Here I was about to turn 45 and I was faced with the truth that
We learn to put up with a lot in life. We learn to accommodate. We learn to compromise. We learn to plow through all manner of things that we would rather not do.
A lot of this we learn in childhood. With time, we lose touch of our deepest inner truths. We get used to plodding through the routine of have to’s.
Then when one day you find…
Imagine yourself as a musical instrument.
Pretend for a moment that you’re a piano, or a guitar, or a drum.
Imagine the edges of your body being the walls of the instrument, and imagine feeling the hollowness inside. Your body as a resonance chamber for the sound the instrument will emit.
Imagine now the music being played, and imagine the waves of sound moving through the instrument. Invisible vibrations that are nonetheless absolutely real. The walls of the instrument feel the sound and move at the frequency of the vibrations from the keys being struck, the strings being pulled, or the hyde of the drum being tapped.
This morning, I wrote the following statement on my fridge whiteboard:
Fear binds the world. Forgiveness sets it free. ~ A Course In Miracles
That was the subject of my meditation this morning, and it prompted me to share it on social media. Once I was done, I knew I wanted to share it on the blog and newsletter.
Lately I've been chewing on the idea that everything in our lives flows from our deepest self-worth. But what exactly is self-worth? Where do we get our self-worth from? And what undermines our worthiness?
I bring this today because it might be an invaluable exercise for you to look at what areas of your life are presenting challenges, and get curious about whether deep down there might be some unworthiness at the heart of the problem.